god i’m sorry
i’m so inexplicably, ineffably, lost. i don’t know where i’m going, everything seems so shitty and i guess i’m supposed to chin up and say things will get better soon, i don’t know. it doesn’t seem like it. i know it’s my fault, i’m making a big deal out of nothing right? i have the most amazing people in my life, i have an amazing life. why am i complaining? i don’t know, i’m just sad. i don’t know why, i’m lost, i’m trying to figure things out but the thing is i’m just get more and more entangled in this idea i can’t articulate that slowly chews away the music and crayons and the color in the sky, that no one seems to understand or feel the same way. i don’t know i know i’ll feel stupid for posting this, it’s just so hard to be happy
